assalamualaikum~~
fuh lme nyer ak xwrite something for this ugly looking blog of mine~~ hahaha..
k, what i want to share with you today~~~???
i don't know why, suddenly i felt so pissed and bengang~~~ i don't know why.. today i dh deactivate my facebook account meaning that, i won't contact anybody from now on~~ ak mcm dh rsa fed up r.. although yg wat ak terasa kecik ahti, bengang n panas juast a feww people.. tp ntah la.. ak sakit hati sgt... why do they always treat me like this?? i just want to be a normal human.. i want to change, and i need u guys to support me.. but~~ life really sucks (my life.. ) i thank Allah for giving life to me and i blame myself sbb xtaw nk hargai diri sendiri... i feel so malas nk lyn org, i dh muak n i dh mls~~ g jhnm sume~~ until now, i still lg rse mcm panas gler~~ ntah la.. perasaan yg d hasut syaitan la ni~~ ak cube nk tenangkn diri, but xde pape.. maybe ngn solat kot.. jap g ak nk smyg... people, salah ke ak nk change, now i rse mcm xnk jmpe dh sume org, but will i survivie?? or ak just wat ngong2 je. huhu,,, bengang ak arini~~ dorg x pk ke yg ak ni pun ade perasaan?? xkn ak just nk jge dorg nye perasaan...?? what about me?? yes i know u r smarter than me and i'm STUPID!!!! yeah i acted like i know everything. yes i don't know a single thing,,, i'm damn damn DAMN DAMN DAMN STUPID!!!! (just feel like i wanna go home) i'm worthless... now i feel tht my is short, maybe tomorow i will be gano from this world... i really wanna change and i really am, but the way u treat me makes me wan to go back to my old life~~ i'm pissed~~ one more thing ( within this two months in this such boring place, i found that i had a crush on this girl. she's in my group and i don't why, i kept thinking of her.. is this what u call love?? haha.. but i don't think i deserve her, she deserve more mature and good guy rather than me.. crazy, stupid and disastrous.. maybe i will be single or just imagine that i have a girlfriend.. that would help me feel better.. hahha.. i'm in love with somebody i don't know.. but still, i like her.. maybe just like.. hoho...
the main story here is I BENGANG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! f***ing s***!!!!
